Sigh – I Am Who I Make Myself

To explain one annoying thought:

For a movie

And movie series

I have watched

And a book series

And tv series

I have

Purposefully not:

I will offer my hand

To the muse

But I will not take

Or chain theirs

If it hurts too much.

That’s what actually therapy is for.

Have you ever tried to run after a runaway dog or cat?

Turn around and say “car ride” or “treat”.

Fear and anxiety were not taught what they are

Young

And how to assuage them with

Both thought and action

Then

How can it

Learn how to help you?

The muse is sometimes pure anxiety telling you (at different moments, and this is not a complete list, nor will everyone experience all of them):

“Here is how you could be hurt

Here is how you are hurt?

Here is how we get everything that could hurt you to stop it.

Who cares if people say it’s bad?

Make it stop.

How does it

Stop?”

It stops

When you say

I need

Someone who understands

What it means

Care

And

Help.

People.

Please.

The art I’ve seen has been reflections of the world:

That was

That changed

That was not

That is

That is changing

That is not

That could be

That could change

That what is not changing

And that which different people believe

Should

And

Never should.

Are you going to do something

About it

Now?

And unfortunately I have also watched

Jaws 3.

Ugh.

Stop it with the remakes

Already.

It loses the point

And really out jumps

The shark.

Yes I watched that series too.

At least it wasn’t

Boring

Deeper

Into

Dread.

And it always seems

Like artists

Are the most afraid

Of psychology because

Yes

I know that history

And the rest are taught too.

I snuck in

And out

With so much teaching experience

But I’m an artist first.

Then

Is not

Now.

Jeez.

Hannibal is a metaphor for that which eats at you.

Also:

Go read ancient history.

Hanni:

Favoured of

Ba’al:

Storm and prosperity.

Balanced by understanding

They can help.

As long as they aren’t

Turned into

A cruel moron.